Ridiculous

Ok, I'm sure that any person reading this blog who lives in the UK knows this already, but for anyone outside of the UK, this was a Headline from the BBC on Friday:

Heavy snow causes travel chaos in parts of England


...and here is the Link to the story: http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/uk/8420057.stm 
Now, correct me if I'm wrong, but err.. why the HELL should just a few inches of snow cause major road, rail, and air problems? It isn't like it is so thick that you have to wade through it. It isn't anywhere NEAR the depth of snow that Canada and parts of the U.S. get. 
So, um, why? Scotland, just a wee walk up the road, doesn't have such problems:
http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/uk/8418457.stm

Traffic conditions in the UK, after a bit of snow fell.



No gritting lorries available, anyone? Mayor? Just like last time, back in Feb? Hmm? No answer? Oh, okay then. 

Talking to myself

Talking to myself am I? Hmm? Any answers?? No?
Thought not.
Must be then.

No-one ever comments, so obviously either I'm a bad writer or a piece of shit.
Oh well, that's good. It's what I thought all along anyway.

Unlife [ Warning: May Trigger]

So Tired right now. So f***ing tired of this 'life', the arguments, the stupid words that are said.
Want to burn or cut, so maybe, we'll see.

If you ever find life beyond this craziness, you know where to find me.
In the shadows.

Update etc Part2

I feel sick today. Not sure why, whether it is to do with the fact that I got to bed at 5am this morning, or some bug doing the rounds, or something else.
Oh well.
I'll keep you posted. As well as the CIA, NSA, MI5, and everyone else involved in spying on the innocent.

That reminds me. It is a f***ing TRAVESTY that torture was actually (maybe that should read actively)- sanctioned for the use on suspected criminals (I'm not gonna use the word that should be there, as it may involve more problems for me, as I already have enough, thank you very much)-by certain members (need we say more, nudge nudge)-of the US and UK Governments.
The way I see it, you are stooping to their 'level' by doing those heinous acts, and I mean the REAL criminals, not the ones that you say are but you are totally wrong and they AINT.

"Oh ok, let's get out the anal probes and give 'em hell, after all, they're criminals, aren't they?" "Well, sir, I'm not sure you are entirely correct in that statement"
"What the fuck are you talking about, boy??"
"They haven't been tried. In a Court Of Law. Sir."
"Well shit on me as well, why don't you, son!!! Fuck!! Just obey my orders!! Hell, even the chief of staff himself says they are criminals!! Now get on out there and start torturing!! NOW!!!"
"Sir."

...........Or something like that.

And they wonder why Amnesty International are annoyed at them..........

Update etc WARNING: MAY TRIGGER (If you self harm, that is).

Don't you just hate it when everything is conspiring against you?
Even if it isn't true, but it seems that way?
Well for me it is true. Or maybe it seems that way much, much more than usual.



Got up late as I went to bed at around 5am. 'Did' my face in the bathroom but, as is often the case, had one or two moments whilst I was doing this that made me want to SCREAM.

1] Noticed yet another acne scarring mark (sorry, can't be bothered to write that in the Queen's English, so just deal with it).
Now I know that my face is fucking ugly to start with. But I certainly DON'T need any more scarring appearing, thank you very much. It, my skin, my flesh, my so-called face, is already 'craggy' enough.

2] Was wiping me face down and in certain spots it was more sore than usual, which was odd. Very. Not right. Unusual. Pertaining to the unexplained.
I don't need that, either. Having excema is shit enough, thanks.

So wanted to cut again, after accidently nicking myself with a new razor. Fucking hate not being able to cut. Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggghhhhhhhh.

Okay, that's it for now, be back later.

Ignored as usual

I don't need this.
Not the thing in my head that tells me I'm insane. Or rather, Not Very Well, Really.
Not that. That's here for life. It is meant to be.

No, not that. What I don't need is my 'significant other' (err, 'scuse me, who first thought that one up? Why?)- telling me that I'm uncaring, selfish, not right, in manners that dictate themselves through her very facial dispostions, in a way that yells in your face the obligatory 'F Off!!', .....because it is wrong.
I haven't done a thing, nor said anything bad or nasty, that warrants such a thought or such actions. And yet it still goes on.

I don't need this, because I have to face the stupid, ugly, bad, nasty, uncaring, selfish, dangerous, homophobic, racist, judgemental, ignorant people outside everyday.
And I find it hard to cope with them let alone this, AND my own illness.

And the point is..?

Today I am awake earlier than usual (normally it's around lunchtime or after)- because of
a certain person waking me up. 3 times during the early hours. And no apology.
So now I am thinking what is the point of carrying-on with this person when all I get is
frustration and annoyance and other crap?
Do you believe that we are meant to have a bad or good life? Are some of us 'Blessed', while others are 'Cursed' (whatever you believe in)??
Or is it just simply a case of having too many bad experiences and becoming so f***ing accustomed to them that you feel... believe... that you are 'cursed'?

I can ask.. but for most of the time in writing my daily thoughts and experiences in here, I feel like a shadow or a ghost... because there is no one commenting or 'following' my blog.
Oh well. Sometimes it's best to be left alone.